To see a generation know Jesus.

A Bit About Me

My name is Hannah Holt, and I am 22 years old. I was born in Dallas, TX; however, I grew up in Hawaii. I am the youngest child by at least 10 years out of 4 kids and grew up in a Christian family. For most of my younger childhood years, I was just doing what I was told to do, having fun and being your average kid. I went to church because my parents went to church; we would pray because, obviously, that's what we are supposed to do as believers. I had no idea about a personal relationship with God or that it was deep at least. I loved God but I didn't really know Him. When I was in 6th grade, my family picked up their lives, and we moved to California. I finished 6th grade there, and then, again, in my 7th-grade year, we moved to Texas. I had no clue what this would look like, I had never not lived near the ocean. What I did know was how to pick myself up, move and attempt to make good friends. I got pretty good at that from changing schools pretty often as a kid but never knew how to build deep friendships with others. I began to go to church and I getting involved in many ways, but still, I hadn't bothered with a personal relationship or reading a Bible outside of church. I simply knew religion, I knew the right things to say, the right way to act, how to worship, but I began to see myself living a double life. Feeling like I had to meet the expectations of those around me but drowning mentally and emotionally inside. I never showed my struggles to others though, I was always one being strong for others and putting on a happy face. I once described it as being in a glass box able to see everything around me but so alone.I began to find myself searching in many places for this void in my heart to be filled with love and satisfaction. This led to a dark road for me filled with shame, guilt, escapism, crippling anxiety, fear, and suicidal thoughts.

In 2018, I went to a summer camp called Youth For The Nations (YFN) in Dallas, TX with my youth group. Little did I know that God would use this camp and people to open my eyes. I realized that there was so much more to God, but I didn't know exactly what that would even look like or how to find out. YFN has a high school summer internship called The Core; I found out about it and applied to be in Core for 2019. I got accepted, and summer of 2019 was where my life changed forever. I began to open up about struggles, encountered God for the first time through visions and feeling peace. I surrendered my life, got baptized, and God spoke about a calling to ministry. I graduated high school in 2020 and started my time at a Bible college called Christ For the Nations Institute (CFNI) in Dallas, TX. I did the 3-year program and received a degree in Pastoral and Youth Ministry. Over those 3 years, there were many ups and downs; however, God healed me, set me free from so many things. Some of the biggest being suicidal thoughts, lust and fear. The Lord taught me a lot during those 3 years, He revealed Himself to me in ways I can't explain but that have marked my life. Missions became a common theme throughout my time that God continued to speak to me about, others projected to me about, and that I had many dreams about. The things I received from God at CFNI has shaped and formed my foundation of who I am and what I believe today. 

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I pray that through reading a bit about me you would hear my heart and know that my life is owed to Jesus, and now I am living it for Him forever. I pray that through hearing my story you would be encouraged to be a testimony to those around you and share the good news of Jesus with them. That you would connect with my heart and everything I believe God wants to do with and through me. May you see the faithfulness of God through my testimony and know that he will be faithful in your life.

With Love,

Hannah